Then it was different. Then, instincts didn't matter because they were ruled out by fear. Then, all of the red flags and consequences vanished and the only thing I could see and all I looked forward to was the end. The end of another regret before it began. Never did I ask myself what awful things would come out of these short moments of surrender. Never did I think of all that would become tainted. Not once did the pain of now cross my mind then. Then, I was the only human being I trusted.
Then was not today.
